ARRGGG!!!! IM STRESSED OUT!!! sorry about the harsh tones in this post but i really need a place to release my anger. if u feel offend my the vulgar words, i suggest u dont carry on reading. saying sorry over here at the start 1st.
just the 1st day of sch and im so stress and sick an tired liao... feel like screaming!!! surpose to be sleeping soundly yest night de, than at mid-night suddenly right ear feel itch and later internal pain. kaoz... so unbareable!bo bian, go down to see my doc at d 24hr clinic. luckily the ear drum is not damage. only just internal infection. it was the side effect caused by the running nose problem from the past weeks. but it could also be very bad... cos it might also damage the nerves near the brain and the tiny bone between the air way and the ear... er, chim? understand? dont know? go read the bio-book! haiz... no mood to laugh. only have $20 in hand, so still own doc $70.
at least go sch is better. better than the mood i am now. today is Science lesson. Megdeleine Liew actually ok la... but feel tat she abit too proud ba... also quite firm on us... at least she still have the heart and time to help amos, better than cheongster. today's RJ also quite stress lor... think so long still no answer... haiz... then anyhow do and when back home... oh, today msn also siao siao one... cannot IM, sent files and worst of all, i cannot login... KNN de. stupid idiot fucker MSN.
kaoz... here is the fucking part... when home and took my medicine. than waiting for my mum to come back so tat can get money from her to repay the doc. from 6pm wait till 9pm still not back yet. of cos i will fall asleep cos of the drowneness effect la. than ask her to help me go pay and get my remaining medicine she dont want... kaoz... idiot. give stupid excuses. had to force myself to wake up, take the money, walk down to clinic, pay the outstanding payment and then come back. CB... cannot even walk straight liao... having serious headache and then have to do all these things.... she think tat i so free to do all these things ar? y wont i spend all these stupid and unmeaningful time for other purpose? look at all my friends... do they all keep on fall sick? y i sick for 1 full mth and there is like no recovery? CB, KNN, FUCK! im sick and tired liao. i can kill someone any moment... luckily just now go down no one provotes me... if not tat guy sure going to lay on ground flat... while crossing the road keep on thinking of dieing... AARRRRGGGG... y i have this kind of thinking de??? writing in here is just to lessen my stress level only... it doesnt help me to solve my problems.... haiz... wat kind of life i am living now... watch TV just now also can get fustrated... AAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!
WAT DID I OWN THEM IN MY PREVIOUS LIFE???!!!!! I SWEAR TO MYSELF TAT I WILL NOT FOLLOW MY PARENTS FOOTSTEP NEXT TIME... I WILL LOOK AFTER MY CHILDS IN GREAT CARE... I WILL MOULD THEM TO BE A BETTER PERSON THAN IM NOW. I WONT GIVE THEM SO MUCH PRESSURE AND WILL MAKE SURE THEY WILL LED A DIFFERENT LIFE COMPARED TO THE LIFE IM LIVING NOW. I SAID IT AND I MAKE SURE I WILL DO IT.
i hate the kind of person tat dont comes out with a decisions... like Pastor Prince from nat's church told us tat story... 'anything'... wat tat means? ask someone wat thing they wan to eat and reply is 'anything'... did they mean serve them shit also they will eat them up cos of 'anything'? KNN... i really hate this reply from now on.
im sick of my life. currently, im on fire. really dont want to scold someone out of nothing... i'll just end here... hope tml ada's lesson is a gd destress lesson. if not i'll just get myself a MC.
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